I'm learning a lot about joy through pain right now. About getting myself off the rubber-sole stained court and playing injured, even though it would be easier just to curl up in a ball and cry.
I'm sick of living in my habits and of letting them shape me. I need a new story. My life is in desperate need of a revival.
EVERYTHING is always about God. And I mean absolutely everything.
The Divine Creator didn't put me in school right now just to waste time before getting to the "real deal" that happens when I graduate. My life shouldn't revolve around my future. What if I actually died today and didn't end up becoming the missions physical therapist like I always imagined? Hebrews 11 describes how all of the founding fathers obeyed God through faith, believing the promise that He had a new life in store for them. But then they died. And it says that they all of these, though commended through their faith, did not receive what was promised, since God had provided something better for us, that apart from us they should not be made perfect".
Now that last part still kinda confuses me, but on the whole, it really blows my mind. This is Moses and Abraham and Rahab we're talking about. They were great. And I think that I deserve to receive the promises of God? His Purpose in giving me the desire to pursue missions and physical therapy could be for the sole purpose of pruning me and shaping me into the woman whom he called me to be. I may never actually reach that part of my life though. Heck, I may just become a mom in the suburbs (dear God, no!). But honestly, does it really matter?? Because He has provided something better for us. Because everything is always about Him and our relationship with Him.
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