grrr

I feel sick with frustration.

Why does this happen? Why do we go through such extreme shifts of mood?
Is it just me? Am I half crazy?

I'm falling more in love with Jesus every day,
but then I look in the mirror and I just want to turn away quick before I see all of the imperfections covering me.

It's stupid, really. I mean, I've done this before. I've experienced Satan's attacks like this before.
So I'm not ignorant. I know what it all means. I know that as I draw closer to the Lord, Satan draws closer to punch me where I'm weak. I hear lies whispered in my head, almost audible, they are so clear.

"You're getting a bit more padded around the middle, you're only pretty with make-up on, if anyone gets close enough to you they will be disappointed, you'll never be quite good enough for the guy you've held out for, you'll never be quite good enough for the life you've worked hard for" ... this that and the other. Blah blah blah.

It's all so stupid.

I've been receiving some amazing prayer over my life recently, and the Holy Spirit has been teaching me so much about the Truth recently, so it's no wonder that I'm experiencing so much inner struggle right now. Ah! I just want it all to shut the heck up!

So I'm putting this out as a blog, because I don't want to give Satan power over me.

I'll admit that I feel weak right now, in this instant.
But Jesus is more true, more full of love.

I am a daughter of the King and my Kingdom is not of this world.

"If God is for us, who can be against us?... In all things we are more than conquerers through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord."
Romans 8:31, 37-39

"For though we walk in the flesh, we are not waging war according to the flesh. For the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh but have divine power to destroy strongholds. Look at what is before your eyes. If anyone is confident that he is Christ's, let him remind himself that just as he is Christ's, so also are we."
2 Corinthians 10: 3,7


Phew!
Amen!